Business to Job: A trade of Self-Esteem

I cannot begin to express the overwhelming pressure and burden that has weighed down on me. You see, if you have been following my blogs, you already know of the hardships I have faced. Although I have managed to find peace with most of my struggles, I have had to make some difficult decisions, such as leaving my business to switch to a job. This change has not been an easy one, my friends.

Every day, I find myself struggling to hold on to my sanity and fighting the urge to resign. Although I have not shut down my business, working in an office under management has been an exhausting and soul-crushing experience. It pains me to admit that I have resorted to venting on social media because I feel suffocated in this environment.

N7 Tech may be the right office for me, but the management issues never seem to end. The toxicity of the environment is overwhelming, and the company's attitude towards its employees is disgraceful. I am forced to bear the burden of all expenses, even for a simple cup, and the company only provides for its employees after dragging them through the mud. I find myself having to use the public restroom during my time in the office because it is a better alternative than trading my self-respect for their pathetic provisions.

This entire experience has taken a severe toll on my emotional and mental health. While I do have good days, the slightest demand from management makes me feel like the worst person alive. I am torn between wanting to raise these issues to higher administration and being bound not to report them for significant reasons.

My friends, I implore you, never go back to jobs after being your boss because it's a trade of your self-esteem, and the cost is hefty. I do not know how long I can keep up with this soul-crushing attitude, but I am trying my hardest to push through because I have to. Please, keep me in your thoughts as I navigate through this challenging time in my life.